Date:10th Feb
My better half,
Love you,
Hope this mail of mine doesn't find u thinking about me. Hey..!
just see..I didn't leave my taunting spirits after coming this far
from you and after this long. What to do, people say things stagnate
as we move ahead in life. But still my heart doesn't accept a mind
of u without my thoughts...
Now c'mon don start again..!I am not beingpossessive... Even if I am...
you happen to be my proud property for thelast so many years...don't u?
ok..ok.. I'll not say it property. But you are mine sweetie. And I don't
think you have any confusion about it.


Changing your mind..haan...!peep inside n u'll still find me beating...:)
So,it's been more than a year since I left our home. How r u? Hmm...
again a complaint...I asked about you so late.Ok...I am sorry...wat?
This is my nth sorry to you.Ok..one more..:D....ok baba..doing it from the
very first day we met.accepted..happy now..! O yea...as ever....really..!

How crushing is your smile..>:D<..Feels like lockin u in my arms..but m so far..:| So u must be having a genuine question. How suddenly after a long break I wrote to u? Well...u guessed it right:D.Tomorrow is my b'day ,the day so special for me, not just because I was born...but for those sweetest surprises that u gave each year. N really, despite my repeated attempts...u smartly managed to bowl me out with ur unpredictability in ur choice of surprises... How can I forget my first b'day wid u. wen unlike the gruesome kickings of college days, 11th started wid ur lips n ended in ur eyes.n how abt that party..!I never knew u could manage that well/:)..Ok..but Mrs.Sharma helped u..right..!wat was da need to include her? I was thr? ok baba..fine...u did..no issues.Oh..!I had just done little buttering of Mrs. SHarma. How dare u think fishy about that..x-(....Wat? That was my way to blame u? Hey...that was js my way to express love.:D..I won..=)) I still wonder y u felt I wud be changing as our day will move ahead.Was it just because of those stupid magazines u used to go thru or u din have faith. I think u had. I wud have killed that news paper wallah...if one murder wr pardonable.Now don't make faces.Those wr stupid...seriously... Remember the day pari tore ur silly magazine?...n u...x-(...wr in a mood to hit her:O... she was js 4 months honey.How could u...??? wat abt those words you told me js after her birth--"new bloom in our garden...let's promise we wud never let it's fragrance vanish n you'll never snub her." I always fulfilled my promise but u hitted her at so many occasions.>:P
bad girl..[-(...hmm...Ur hitting was a part of love...so smart..!
aiye..!now dun b sad.as usual i diverted frm path. But seriously...I never liked the way u
laughed at me over my small-small concerns about Pari. She is my daughter too yaar. And madam...if I felt insecure wen she went to school....that didn't mean that I was a bad guy in my school days..>:P
Hm...I know...1000 times repeated sentence. But wat...u never take me. Hey u knew how much I loved u.HUh? U never took my hard word seriously..:((..but in a way..this always put me closer than the closest to u.From the first night to the last day... I was a proud man finding my soul in u. How can someone be so blessed:)...everything fell exactly whr we wanted.

But I still don't like ur coffee color lipstick..x-( I donno who da hell told u looked good in that..don't u hv better skin n better lips..=P~..ok..ok I m not turning romantic..chill..!
but prefer that of natural color plz..

Hey..=))=))=))=))....u know y i am laughing..:D...i still remember the day I showed some wrinkles on ur skin...U didn't sleep the whole night..=))...mirror n u...=))...so wat..!after all Pari was writing her boards...U had got to see that day.yeah..! I too used dye...wat's big..! How is sam..??? hey..u chose a perfect match for our pari..:)..Fair n tall..ok ok.. unlike me at my times..:|..enuf teasing for that..[-(

But thanks for the lesson u gave to me... I was not able to see my love divided for pari...how cud I?after all, she was an integral part of us for the last 22 years...n Sam took it all in less than 1 day.now just don't start giving our example. I too can understand...but u wr lookin gorgeous on her marriage.That yellow sari made u just too hot to handle;)...ya..!I was lookin at u. Wat to do sweetie..I can't refrain from my business da...b-)...

We were alone in the home.I didn't see u crying so much before. Where wr those tankers hidden:O...ok..ok..I too wept...Now she was our jaan pyari...how cud I control..:|...Days passed..Same routine..office,tranfers,travelling,projects....hey..how can we forget da day we came from the office only to get the call about Anirban.How did u shout at me wen I said we might not be able to go. After all it was her first child.u know honey,It was
js as if her childhood had returned in the form of Anirban. Same touch,same smell,same eyes...how heavenly it felt nudging those echhmall echhmall fingers....really..time has wings...felt for da first time.

Days passed n passed. We were steady n Sam was at his peak of da success level.
How gr88 it was to see them with entire army on da day of our 25th anniversary...:O they broke open da door..seriously..Pari has learnt it frm u only...vigorous surprise..:D....We didn't sleep even after the party. Entire night...hand in ur hand n eyes talking... wat a smooth feelin that ws. Greater than the 1st night probably...

Ya sweetie...I did promise to celebrate our 50th one with u the same way. But it's not that I changed my mind.I know u won't be happy that I am this far from u.No jaanu,I don't have male ego.We always moved matching our steps.Did I ever try to walk ahead? So not on that day too...It was a mild pain yaar. But this scoundral came to take me... But don't wry...coz my soul is still with u..;)...I have cheated HIM..;))..how could he snatch a complete me from u. After all u r my BETTER HALF..:)..So I am again there to take my surprise pack frm u..=P~...I had quite a hard time negotiating with them for sending an e-mail frm heaven.com to yahoo.com at earth...they said no protocol wud allow.

It was only after bramha's intervention that i cud get a chance to send u.
Hey hey... don't cry haan..!Otherwise I too will start n it's not allowed here.hey..wanna find me..!js caress ur heart..n u'll find me there.I'll be turning 77 tomorrow. Don't u dare to let the drops come out of ur eyes tomorrow... I can'tbear that....I don't wanna die again n again.I know u won't follow my instructions. But I'll be there..I promise...

Don't put 77 but js a candle n look in it...u'll find me.

Cold is not out completely. So put on pullovers properly. You too have become quite weak.Get urself chkd at Dr. Chaddha's clinic.I know u don't feel like going out.But little walk will heal u.y do u sleep in drawing room? y not in our bed room..?
If u feel worst missing me,then I shudn't even be remembered. So rather learn to live happily without me,coz u can't be able to do away with me I know..;)..oh..!y this coughing....I think..U rather say Pari to take u to sm top Dr..Sam must be having some good contacts. I don't want u here soon.Coz Pari needs u more than me right now.Did our Anirban choose any
girl for him or not..? Do dye ur hair if U feel like..:P..Oh no..!u r looking gr8 n gorgeous as ever.but even..;).....

Now stop it..!don't cry sweetie. I am going. It's time for logging out. Say my hugs to Sam,Pari n Anirban....

I'm n I'll be there for u...always...Love U always...

urs unlucky,
Raman
Type-R,HIG,
Flat No.-11
soulless lane,
Heaven
Pin--111 1111.

Friends...! in need are indeed.....they laugh with your smile and feel more pain with your sorrows.
Friends are invaluable gems....friends are the assets you can rely upon....they show the true meaning to your life..........................................................................................

I have seen my tissues growing and giving me not so perfect but a well working structure, listening to these quotes only, and with each quote coming across my ears I feel more and more valued about those noble thinking minds who have created it. Mind you, that with my developing self, I am encountering these kind of quotes on the daily basis now. Each having its own visionary and in a perfect mood to leave behind the prior. And in an attempt, not to see an outdated and outcasted
me, I myself have dared to define them in my own incapable way.

But, as my profile says (if you have noticed it at all..:-s), with my life leading ahead towards never found maturity, my realizations towards these issues are in a way...you can say...Fading.

Hey...don't take me wrong. I am not here to prove them inadequate or in a mood to emerge with a new formula for friendship, but just analyzing it a little more deeper and extrapolating the viability of the truth that prevails.

Heart says, we must have a friend who could stand and walk unnerved seeing himself through with all the measures that these quotes offer. But mind sees a picture which is slightly or more than slightly different from what we perceive.

Tell me seriously...do we follow any rule with our friend that these quotes set for us. Even if we do,how long does it last..... if these rule become mandatory for our life to move, will we even be able to shake our lymph,forget moving alone. So,where are we...what are we trying to show and what do our actuators perform really...?? Are we through with our logistics.???..No we are not....

A friend betrays me saying he/she can't tolerate my rubbish anymore.Had i meant to do rubbish then why the hell he/she was my friend. Where did the meaning go,which said friends are those who behave equally in your joys and sorrows....
I betray a friend saying he/she doesn't interest anymore....he/she did this to me....he/she did that to me.....then why didn't I realize it before.....someone says to have lost faith in me.....then why the hell..this faith was before....

Was I/He/She trying to deceive him/her/me.... If not then why now...Are we incapable of being consistent with our thoughts or our emotions are swallow enough to evaporate so soon...?

So..shall we redefine what friendship means...or we attempt for a never seeming change..............
But changing the meaning will make our heart hollow as we are prone to set idealistics.....So why not yet again,givin a thought and introspect the interconnection between our deeds and statements...................

After All......Me n U Together Make A Life Full Of Thoughts....:)

PS:-My meaning for a friend is a Good Friend........

so..finally me too in the foray with a glimpse of myself to this world full of the people with smartness and intelligentsia.when i was creating my account i had a thought in my mind as to what can be the suitable name for my blog and suddenly it hit to my mind.me n u together makin a life full of thoughts n.... there was a smile on my face.it usually happens to me.when i think something i often feel happy about it and my mind loads enough of supporting files inside the heart to justify them.can we think of breathing even without thinking.every single entity is blessed with a certain amount of buffer for the thought processing.most of the time when you are busy with the happenings of this mad- mad world your thinkings get cornered inside desperately biddin to come out ....n then the moment comes when you are busy for nothing you get a feelin of unwinding suddenly...gotcha..!you find a blog page.....a place where you can give life to your emotions that didn't have any motion out of your sheer life style and your adamance of findin somethin BIG in life(not really knowing what they are..).there are several facets of life.one facilitates you to find the necessities for your existence...then may be the other one eases your life with respect to your status in the society....some facets check your creativity....some integrity...... some poise....some composure.......but one slightly hidden face of your life is your vision....the way you interpret each and every atom that come across your eyes.....and the blue print that gets created...and a place where this can be auctioned and evaluated shows a real life out of your life......so here i am...this is me....for you.....with a page that instantiate my thinking.....invokes you to share yours.....and together we can make a world full of thoughts..:D